phyphilo

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

心病還須心藥醫

人人都想佔有心目中渴望得到的。

但﹐
理所當然嘅事﹐
誰都無力主宰。

本應如此心平氣和的相處﹐何必當初?


多謝你。
一番毫無主題的談話﹐
我哋﹐
唔再冷戰﹐
唔再做膚淺的推測﹐
唔再要求。

你知我點諗﹔
我知你點諗﹐
已經足夠。


應誠你﹐我唔會再任性的亂發脾氣。你都係。

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas

聖誕假期﹐你做咗啲乜?
我唔係教徒﹐日子都係咁樣過, 冇點樣特別嘅慶祝。好似例牌佳節咁﹐forward/send 短訊祝福大家。 值得一提嘅係﹐竟然收到一啲 long lost friends 嘅 msg , e-card 同 e-mail。發夢都估唔到﹐佢哋仲記得我﹐仲有 keep 住我嘅 number 同 e-mail addrs, (內容係乜﹐一啲都唔重要)。唔知點解, 感覺好 warm 啊。聖誕節往往就係咁﹐俾人一種溫馨嘅感覺。

一早, 去 supermarket 買咗啲嘢﹐再去 Starbucks 小飲一番; ice blended caramel 咖啡, 傾吓計。然之後, 去 shop 咗一陣。無驚又無喜。

返到屋企, 既然收到一份 WLT 俾我最大嘅聖誕禮物— “葉倩文×陳奕迅 拉闊演唱會”。
好正! 好正… …
葉倩文嘅實力必然係眾所週知。

陳奕迅的確係好掂
唔需要俊俏嘅樣貌﹐百變嘅形像﹐華麗嘅包裝﹐動感嘅舞步... ...
通通都唔需要﹐佢已經係目前最喜愛嘅香港男歌手

Saturday, December 24, 2005

I never get tired of seeing a sunset

Transfer these pics frm my ‘multiply’ page. The years were 2001-2004, pics were taken on 1’f the Borneo land, Sabah.

Maybe it is an illustration of my boredom tat causes me shift in the pics, or maybe it has something to do with the nausea that comes from missing.

Yeah … I am so much into photographing, snapping nice view…
Sad but true, real life will seem very, very boring… almost pointless.
No matter how many words u'v talked, how many hours u'v slept, how many wrk u’ve done…
When you turn too fully occupied by an interest, u become deeply addicted (ppl tat u’ve grown fond of), you will keep on doing the same thing, wherever you go (u’ll keep on missing, whnvr time past), it can’t get out of your mind.
Home sweet home; so I’m here in Cheras. (Has my heart bck home yet?)



end’f ’01, sunset, Indah Permai, Sepangar, KK
mid’f ‘01, sunset, Indah Permai, Sepangar, KK
May’01, dawn, air…
Sept’03, facing Tanjung Aru Resort, KK
Sept’04, sunset, Kolombong, Sbh
Sept’04, sunrise, Kundasang, Sbh
June’04, sunset, Karambunai, Dalit Bay, KK, Sbh
2003, sunset, DFR, Sbh
2003, noon, DFR, Sbh
2003, noon, DFR, Sbh

2003, noon, Eusideroxylon zwageri bridge, DFR, Sbh (taken by Azny)
2003, dawn, DFR, Sbh

June’04, sunset, Sutera hbr, KK

Friday, December 23, 2005

我也笑我

我也笑我原來是個天生的。。。
今日全日播楊千嬅野孩子

Have you ever watched a movie starring by Cecilia Cheung & Eason Chen (co-act: Stephen Fung, Ronald Cheng & Candy Loo)?
If you did, I’m sure you’d doubtlessly agree “they’re playing the similar role as ur frens’ actual life (not evry1, but at least one of the couples does.)”

Life, life, life… why is it so boring? 真係估唔到, everyone is doing the same thing; consequently, similarity happens everyday, in ur life, in my life, ur story, mine? movie, fiction, all repeating…. 就正如﹐ 最後一幕﹐謝霆鋒嘅出現﹔ 又係另一個 <12夜> 嘅開始 。

Jeannie (Cecilia C.) knws tht she is doing the wrong things, however, she jst can’t help being immature. 矛盾﹐ 糊塗﹐ 幼稚﹐瘋狂﹐ 但﹔真心﹐投入﹐真實。 迷失後﹐再尋找。

雖然呢部電影未能及“ 花樣年華 ” 喺我心目中般完美。 但﹐最起碼有共鳴﹐ 我了解佢要表達嘅每一個細節。 得啖笑之餘﹐也領悟到一啲嘢。

  • 要點先至可以搵到一個價值觀同你一樣嘅人?
    我姐講:“若要人似你﹔除非兩個你。” (咁又係)

。。。連沒有幸福都不介意

Thursday, December 22, 2005

祝:冬至快樂

冬至大過年!
呢碗湯圓 is for you, my friend.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

忍。

我唔要再忍。
仲要等幾耐喎?
好唔開心,好難受。
點解?

Friday, December 09, 2005

new hair cut


speechless---- nice or NOT? no regret.

Monday, December 05, 2005

无题

I want to be an unstoppable ‘machine’. Wanna get rid of idling and reminisce of sentimental longing. I make full planning for today. wk up at 5a.m, immediately after finished up reading the 1.5inch thick handbook. I wanted to draw a self portrait. Whr do I put my charcoal? errrh… 好鬼冇癮 ! watercolour n oil painting r quite time consuming.

how? stl wanna figure out the way to get it done, I’m jst achingly stubborn at times.
In less than an hour time, I get this cloned-self-portrait done. Using digital tools are much more easily than practical drawing. Oil painting, dark blue filtered lens, acrylic and charcoal all in one piece, at once.


Taken brunch (seaweed porridge), gonna take a warm shower, dress up casually, shop at klcc, bck home, continue writing; writing my lab report.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Love song

以前 , 我很喜歡聽日語歌 , 後來才發現 , 我始終找不到一首 all-time-favourite。我想,可能是不能清楚的了解歌詞而無法投入旋律 。

为什么情歌至今依然是首要题材?
原因 : 写实 、 贴切 、反映戀人戀過的人的心情。


剛拿到陈绮贞的「華麗的冒險」。偏爱以下這两首歌 <self> & <表面的和平>,大概也是因為上述的原因吧!

self
唱/词/曲:陈绮贞 

几次悔过, 掩埋狂妄的恶魔
感觉却好像毁弃善良的自我
几次 脆弱 掩饰 不甘的示弱
这就是我
再说 我也不特别渴求永久
其实我也无法忠于单一感受
静止了 沉溺了 无声的灭绝

晕眩
是我拒绝你已清醒的双眼
是我召唤你眼底的错觉
就让我用力砸毁轻声的诺言
拥抱瞬间
是我用真实的编造了谎言
也是我用残破的猜测这世界
就让我回应你已失序的狂野
虚伪瞬间

是我
几次悔过 掩埋狂妄的恶魔
这感觉却好像毁弃了善良的自我
静止了 沉溺了 无声的灭绝

退怯
是我拒绝你已清醒的双眼
是我召唤你眼底的错觉
就让我用力砸毁轻声的诺言
拥抱瞬间
是我用真实的编造了谎言
就算我用残破的猜测这世界
再一次回应你已失序的狂野
我们表演
是我用真实的编造了谎言
就算我用残破的证实这世界
再一次让我嚐尽犯错的甜美
甜美瞬间
是你带我经过纯洁的瞬间
无悔无邪

表面的和平
唱/词/曲:陈绮贞 

我也无所谓
你说什么都对 当我已经变成了你零碎的時間
终于有机会 让自己再沉淀
让我回到过去不再为你
分裂
我竟然如此执著于星座配对
但是对我们的感觉我比谁都要强烈
我曾经仔细听
你说的大道理
我曾经认识你
像小孩的任性
我曾经凝视你
你眼睛里的熱情
小心不跌入你流失的回忆
终于有机会让自己再沉淀
让我回到过去毫无恐惧的直言
是你太松懈还是我一向
太尖锐
当你不止一次脱口而出曾是对别人的称谓
我曾经仔细听
你说的大道理
曾经小心翼翼
维持表面的和平
曾经认真反省
不唱昨日的歌曲
小心不跌入流失的回忆
为了不让你伤心
伤了我的心


我超喜歡陈绮贞的歌﹐你呢?

Saturday, December 03, 2005

I like Cheer Chen (Taiwanese singer)

Tonight, I feel...
hear this song before?
http://midi.club.st/lyrics/lych/ch31/lyrics31_6.htm
(click the name of the midi composer, u'll hear the melody.)

唱/詞/曲:陳綺貞
會不會   
離開你的視線
卸下我為你偽裝的容顏
紅的唇 白的臉 灰色的午夜

離開你的世界
讓情緒完完整整的渲洩
冷的心 熱的淚 空白的想念

我想今夜就這樣吧
就算孤獨也無所謂
也許有一天你開始後悔
會不會
會不會